March 31, 2010
The perfect life
A'salaamu alaikum ya'll. Wow don't I have the perfect life? A loving husband, many children, happiness beyond compare. Bet I'm getting the evil eye all over the place huh?
Wellll that may be but sisters, dear readers, my life isn't perfect. What no gasps from ya'll? lol Ok so you probably guessed that but I don't like to operate under false assumptions.
My life isn't perfect. I am short-tempered sometimes and the kids (mine and his and ours!) can make me pull my hair out. :-) My husband has his faults as well allahu alim. The list can go on and on but it won't.
I take to heart the injunction from Allah swt to be the keeper of my husband's secrets. That means when/if there is a difficulty between us, you can be sure I won't be posting it here. I am tempted sometimes; how nice to feel I have some anonymity to complain, to get things off my chest.
Then alhamdulillah I think how would I feel if anyone, A or my friends, complained about ME to strangers? I would be devastated and rightly so. I try to keep this a positive place and keep my personal business just that, personal.
So my life isn't perfect but I loooove it. I am happy, content, peaceful, and blessed. We are masha'Allah simple people and we live simply. If we have a disagreement we meet it as Muslims alhamdulillah and it is resolved quickly and without yelling, name-calling, screaming or hurt feelings.
I am a sensitive person with my husband. With others, friends, family members, etc. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve. I love them but their words or actions do not cut me deeply nor do they scar my heart. My husband, on the other hand, can merely be silent for a while and I am worried he is unhappy. I know my emotional demands place a toll on him but insha'Allah my good points make up for it. :-)
I have alhamdulillah had an interesting life and I haven't always been treated respectfully by men, kaffir and muslim alike. So I have some issues, I know, with trusting in love. Please make dua for me that Allah swt repairs my damaged sense of trust and makes me whole, loving, accepting and complete. Ameen!